when it comes to women!!!!!
i hope im not the only one and at least someone can relate...
(man this got long.. Im at risk of sounding like a prat and I expect v few replies! but its theraputic)
I sorta started seeing this girl, and the first few nights were great, but to be honest, we rushed into things way too fast. The origional intention was to be friends first etc etc, but would you know it... there are these funny things called lust, excitement and desire... So that plan fell on its proverbial ass.
She clearly developed her doubts about me. she has been in plenty of relationships, and aint messing around anymore, she wants the 'one', and went into 'im gonna suss this wannabe out' mode... Thats been going on for a couple of weeks now. However, we talk a lot, and see each other a fair bit, and go out regular, have fun, get drunk, i sleep over at hers... you know the drill...
All the while, as we have had terrific times, ive always managed to say or do something that she isnt comfortable with, or offends her somehow, and stresses our situation, usual being of a too forward manor. for example, topics of conversation you have with your mates, that should JUST be with your mates, not a girl you are trying to charm.. t'is fair enough, and we now look back and laugh, but it's been damaging all the same...
My recent '***** up', was today...
But firstly, a few nights ago, i stayed over.. she went to work, i remained in bed. on my way out, i decided to leave the front door lock off its latch, nip to the shop, come back with a box of chocs, and place them on her pillow for her return, then leave.. she loved this gesture, and it was a plus point to me. RESULT
back to today (barely a few days later) - same situation. only this time i got errrr, a little carried away, and the gesture was more overblown (considerably). prezzies, more chocs, and a few other things were involved. This was an impulse thing btw. I also left a note this time.
soon after, i felt uneasy, and a bit cringy. These unwanted feelings were justified as she text me later, expressing her uneasyness and discomfort at the gesture, saying it 'freaked her out...', 'doesnt feel right', is 'too much', and she now needs 'time'......... TIME!!.. great
naturally, I proceeded to ram skull against wall, and curse several times loudly.
Its fair enough... Our relationship is still in 'suss/fun' mode (at best), and it was too much.
I should be unveiling the aspects of my personality and character that will attract her towards me, not repeatadly hammer nails into my friggin coffin!!!
sorry for the lengthy rant, and im sure this is all petty and overdramatic to most, but im just frustrated!!!!! And this predicament doesnt seem irregular for me.
We were starting to get closer, and things were going well. which infact prompted the 'enhanced' gesture. I really like her, and now here i am with that lovely churning feeling in my stomach that we all hate.
foot...shot...in... - i beleive
how long should i leave it without contact??? it will kill me waiting.. and waiting...
any suggestions as to how I can redeem this situation, cool things down and reaffirm to her i dont want to pressure her, and to not scare her off!? say it was my long lost twin brother borris that actually did it?
Im starting to beleive women really are from Venus, and reading their signals is like a blind ape trying to catch a cricket ball.
if you read this far, i thank you sincerely, credit 2 ya