After a long 8/9 years of an on off relationship she is determined that we are OVER for good.
Normally she replies, but lately she is not replying to my msgs (TXTS)
I cant live without her, and i know she cant live without me - we have 2 boys together.... everytime we break up, i find somone else, or as time goes by, she begs to have me back, now we've broken up again but i havent anyone else...
Last thursday after a row, she stormed out of the house, never came back til Friday evening then went out again (2am Sat morning, police came round to tell me to get arrested or leave the house - i aint trusted with the boys cos of the silly texts i sent her [she knew no reply wound me up])
Sat morning, police officer came with me to the house, she said if i wanna stay then i stay and she leaves with the boys.... and to date, she has not come back with thte boys, and she wont talk to me - nor admit that she keeps going out everynite (that is mostly the problem - i'm looking after them every nite, she keeps going out)
so since Thursday nite when she left the house, i have not had any food - all i am living on is alcohol - i know thats not right but i am REALLY down
How can i win her back
I'm nothing without her and she knows it and i know it
2 deaf boys and i was planning on proposing by the end of the year.
Her family are local, and mine are not - in fact i only have mum and dad who i dont confide in that live in Canvey Island.. she has her cousin, mum dad brothers locally...
i have no one... my friends are hers too - so its difficult for me to know whether she has told them her side of the story and wont hear my side (or already have decided who;'s the "goody"
i'm a bit drunk i have to admit hence the truth coming out...
sorry for the long rant but i needed it out of my system but i'm living on Jack Daniuels/Coke and Jim Beam/colke and carling cans.